I’m on such a slow approach to life right now, the following is a journal entry from January 16th that I wanted to share. Here it is February 25th and it’s only just now getting out. I have since been journaling quite a bit as I process and prepare and move forward. Here you go…
Words. So many words spilling over one another in my mind. I hardly have the brain space to capture and process a thought or idea and another one is vying for attention. My mind can become a jumble. I try to hash something out, but then move on to another. There are often half a dozen or so things clamoring for attention and I just don’t quite know what to do with all of it. And so the words fall away.
Sometimes I journal. Most of the time, I try to sift through the thoughts and words in my mind and then it’s on to a new one, and the half dozen that accompany it. I’m lost in words. And I wonder, often, if I’m missing what I’m supposed to be doing with them. Are they just for me? Does anyone else really want to read my “random ramblings”? Are my ramblings and processing of thoughts, my words, are they to be shared? They’re a bit of an insight into me, yes, but would they, could they, encourage and help and guide you, too? Am I missing what God wants from me by keeping my words to myself?
I’ve said for a while now that I’m a words gal. Oh, if you could hear all that processes in my head (and out my mouth, because too often I have to hear it, too, for it all to make sense). There are days I think I could spend all my time writing and still not get it all down. Often, though, I get stuck in the “nobody really wants to hear it” loop, and so I don’t. And yet the words continue to come. The thoughts continue to form and process.
Hmm. Maybe I should just do the “write it” thing, share it, and leave it up to you as to whether or not you care to read it. That would be the “makes sense” thing to do, right? So, there you have it. There I have it. Write. Share. Take your own advice, Sharon, and #LiveYourFaithBoldly! What do I really have to lose?
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